preservation

I had my second German class today, and I really love it! I can't wait to go back to Germany and actually understand what things say and what people say to me. Patrick Wolf is awesome. I'm slowly saving up to be able to support myself when I move away to who knows where once I graduate high school.

My cat died three nights ago. He became really ill three days before his death, and he rapidly just got worse. On the second last night, he was lying on the bathroom floor. He would cry out in pain and loneliness, so I'd get out of bed a few times to comfort him. On the last night, he couldn't move anymore, so we placed him in a box with a blanket over him. His head was lolled over the edge, and he was coughing up mucus. Eventually, he just gave in. He was like a son to my dad, and I couldn't stop crying when I thought about how dad had to lift his lifeless body into another box, to be wrapped up in preparation for burial. Not to be cru

I was awake all night. I'm still not tired. If I nap at all today, I won't be able to sleep again tonight. I need earplugs or medication, because this is an ongoing thing. It was only last night that it was so bad. I wasted time by watching a Criss Angel marathon, reading a poem book that didn't make sense, and moving around on my bed. Staying awake through the night is the most boring thing ever if you can't do anything but be as quiet as possible.